over.whelmed.

I hate to admit this, but I'm overwhelmed with life right now. 

1. Work:
 I love my new job. However, my daily to do list seems to get longer by the minute. There's so much to do, worry about etc and I just dont want to screw anything up! The kids have been wild (no outside time + holiday = crazy) and I've been 2 staff members short all week. To top it off, my awesome assistant has been out on vacation this week as well. She'll be officially banned from taking any more time off from now on! ha!

2. Home:
I'm so thankful that we were given a chance to move back home, especially after I found out that we were going to have a baby. However, I honestly didn't think it would be this difficult and complex. Ben is thankfully in the final stages of the hiring process with Nashville. That is awesome news. However, if for some reason he doesn't get into the January class (after all it's almost Dec), then he has to wait to JULY to start. Um, I'm due in April. I do not want to be a single mom for 3 months.  On the flip side, if he does start in January I will be with out insurance coverage (besides Cobra) for 30 days. I can make it work with temp insurance, but what if something happens with Jack or me in the meantime??

I'm currently living with my parents because Ben really doesn't want me to live in the "new" house by myself. I've really enjoyed being back, but I realllllly need my own space. My parents are great and I appreciate their hospitality (and cooking!!) but I need to be an "adult" again!

Also, we havent even begun to tackle our to do list for our house back in Memphis. We need a new water heater, paint the trim, spruce up landscaping, get a custom threshold made for the tile we installed back in Feb, get a new garage door and I'm sure a few other things. Cha-ching. Thankfully we don't have to be in a huge rush to put it on the market, but I don't want to pay for an empty house forever.


3. Oh baby:
Apparently, once you find out you're having a baby you need to go ahead and order his bedding and all the other stuff. Why didn't anyone fill me in on this news?? I just now found a few crib bedding sets I like and the one lady's turn around time is 12 weeks. Yikes. I'm due in roughly 18. So if it comes and I hate it I have no time to correct the issue. What if Jack is like his mother and wants to be born early? Trying not to even go there.

Picking out his bedding has been beyond overwhelming for me. I always imagined I would enjoy the process of picking it out, but frankly it's stressful. Way to many options. I want my son's room to be perfect. I want his bedding to be just right for him. I want to make sure that B, our families etc all like everything too. Pressure. My mom told me not to worry about what anyone (other than B) thought. I'm trying...really trying to listen to her advice. I'm pretty sure Jack wont care what his room looks like but I want him to have the best.



I know this is a huge pity party for one, but I needed to get it out. I'm trying to remember that old saying "if God brings you to it, He'll bring you through it", but somedays it's harder than others!